More general ideas and personal history

The last yeas has been a difficult transition for me and it is still not over. It probably never will be, that is the characteristic of an educated person.
I went from I-don't-care Agnostic-Atheist to strong vocal Atheist. That happened because I read a history of Greece course. Sure the Ancients fought over territories and resources and stuff but enter Byzantium and everybody was killing each other over whose brand of Christianity is "righter" and not to mention the destruction of the Greek-Roman religion. I freaked. About the Christians fighting each other, then. I thought "Don't they have anything better to do than to fight over the nature of Jesus Christ?" Only later I started focusing on the Hellenism-Christianity conflict.
So I was a vocal radical Atheist. Any mention of god(s) or religion was enough to make me say something nasty. But then I found out there are still people in Greece today who believe in the 12 gods. I was awe-struck! WTF? Of course at first I got mad. But then I thought about it a bit more and... I went to Greece and happened to witness one of their rituals at the Mycaene tomb of Atreus. It was amazing (the acoustics of the cone-shaped tomb is fantastic) to hear those people sing something in Ancient Greek (I only understood the names of the gods) in a circle. When I was trying to build up my courage to ask if I could join them the guides told us we had to go. So anyway, I did research. Got my hands on some of their material, watched some of the rituals on YouTube and I liked what I saw.
Back home I searched a bit and found out that these movements are not just in Greece. There are in the Slavic countries too and they are practically everywhere. Great, new research field for me! It is difficult with the Slavic religion because they have no written sources like the Greeks do. But anyway.
About 2 months ago I started researching Norse Polytheism. I have to say there are 2 gods in the Norse Pantheon that I like very much but the Greek side will always be closest to me.
So there I was, wondering if a Polytheist Atheist is an oxymoron. Sure, Pagan Atheist is not, since Pagans don't have to believe in deities. It could all be about a strong connection with nature. And that I feel too. I love nature and the idea of fertility and on top of all sex (which is the only thing that could ever be really sacred to me). Spring rains, green mountains, waterfalls... Well, we are products of this planet so worshipping Earth as a Mother(Nature) doesn't seem out of line at all to me. It is the Atheism-Polytheism issue I still have trouble with.
Since then, I have come to be a bit more accepting of... religion. But not dogma or blind faith.
Well, maybe this blog will be a way to try to sort things out too. That is difficult, since I know how many opinions there can be!

Aim - Title

I decided to start this blog that I would make into an Atheist's perspective on Neo-Paganism above all.
Let there be no confusion about this: I am an Atheist and I don't think there's anything anyone could do to change that. Yes sure I dabble in Paganism and LaVey-an Satanism but in the end Atheism (yes, I know LaVey-an is an Atheist religion, but I am talking Atheism free of any thought in the religious frame) is the only one that gives me a peace of mind. Comfort.
Yea sure I am involved in the issues of this life I have here on planet Earth (history and literature, languages of some of the peoples of this planet) but the most comfortable and awe-inspiring thing I can think of is a Hubble Space Telescope picture.
Well, this blog is not going to be about Astronomy. To be honest, there is little I can say in that field that would matter. I specialize in those Earthly things.
Though Christians would tell a person like me "If you're so dying to become the stardust that you admire so much, why don't you kill yourself?". There are more answers I could give to that one: "Well, I am alive now, so I might as well make the most of it, plenty of time to become stardust later" or "O just hang around to annoy you!"
I've never understood how an almighty god could give them the reason to live and I find it a sign of terrible weakness that someone can't define their own goals in life, if they are so desperate for them. I... just take it by the ear.
So as long as I'm dabbling in new religions, I might as well make a blog of it, to sum conclusions and stuff.

Loki

It seems like many of the Heathens I meet go all "Eeeeeek!" when I tell them my favourite god from the Norse lore is Loki. But hey, as I've said, one of the reasons I like polytheism is that each person can choose the god that suits him/her best. The lore provides a pantheon and I can choose whoever I like most. To me it is like a menu at the restaurant.

Let's say you walk into a restaurant, the waiter hands you the menu, and you say "I want pizza A". The waiter suddenly freaks and sais "Pizza A? How can you possibly like pizza A? Take pizza B, C, or D, pizzas with honor!". I'd say "Well, pizza B is old and wise therefore boring (Odin), pizza C has a quick temper and doesn't suit my personality anyway (Thor), and pizza D... well pizza D attracts bad luck like a magnet and besides, pizza A (Loki) wants to do pizza D in and I don't see pizza D (Baldr) making it!".

I am at liberty to choose any pizza I want from the menu. And I can choose any god I want from the pantheon. They should just be happy I do like someone from their pantheon, just like the waiters would be happy I chose to eat something at their restaurant.